One of my biggest challenges was not having training partners my size or gender. I weigh around 118 and all the guys outweighed me by at least 30 or more pounds and there were times when I have gotten tossed around or gotten hurt. There were training sessions where I felt beat up and battered from guys who thought that since I was a blue belt I would be able to handle their power and aggression. I've had rolls where I felt completely helpless and powerless to do anything and it was a horrible feeling. I remember there was a period where I felt truly frustrated and wanted to stop training, but my love for jiu jitsu and supportive training partners got me back on the mats. It has been a learning and growing process and now I am able to be more assertive regarding situations where I feel I might get hurt and I've learned to protect myself from those types of rolls.
Jiu jitsu has been an incredible journey. I love the feeling of empowerment and discovery it brings as I start to piece all the pieces together! Learning jiu jitsu is a challenge and sometimes my body does not want to cooperate, so it is so satisfying to finally figure something out and get those "light bulb" moments. Being part of the jiu jitsu community has also been one of the biggest rewards! I have met so many wonderful and amazing people through jiu jitsu.